over my head

i have almost certainly got myself in over my head. for starters, after a month of a vigilant search, i have found my dream apartment: its small, yes but a bachelor. but it is $699 ALL INCLUSIVE! I'm talking prime realistate in an area where everything else is over $775. it has a gym, pool, tennis, racket. and its right by the subway and mall. its clean no bugs! upscale meaning, white people. and all mine as soon as a sign the lease now the problem: i don't have a job this however would not be a problem i know i have to get a job the problem is all of the annoying nagging intolerant people who insist on telling me I'm never going to make it I'm paraphrasing if i don't get a job damn parents! what the hell do they know! its not like I'm going to get a job people! stop stressing me out!! I'm stressing myself out now! onto my other issue the other thing that is working me into a tither is OCAD I'm going - whoopie i was on the site scrolling student work when i should have been looking for a job online like i should be right now pfft and i saw all of these amazing student works i don't know how in the hell i got accepted to this place i swear I'm nowhere near as good as these cracked people ON TOP of all that - i have always embraced this lifestyle of being a weird, outcast, dark, mysterious, artsy fartsy kidyoushoninhighschoolandarenowsportingtheridesignerthreadswhileprimpingyourcasawithalltheir paintings *GAAASP! Andy Warhol style - YE-A! but, i don't know about ocad now they seem really exclusive and i really have no idea how i am going to fit in there i think... yes... my dreams are ruining my life - my fantasies over reality I'm paralysed by my big dreams i have most certainly gotten myself in over my head check out the ocad student site: www.myocad.com

whats happiness to you?

happiness to me is my very own fridge.

making the choice of what gets cold and what doesn't....

fcuk lato 649, THATS freedom.

i could have sworn i updated this thing more recently than June 23.

quick up to date,

I'm moving out.

and it turns out its not as easy as one would think.

-i started out with a budget of $340.

-which was upped to 440$ when i found out that all $330 would buy me was:

deep felt sympathy and maybe a doorknob.

-turns out 440$ wouldn't even buy me a night stay at Toronto's snazziest hotel.

-so once again i upped my ante to $550

-$550 can only buy me a shared apartment with roaches and mice in crack/whore town on Jameson.

so i have upped my final ante to $600.

my AP-SO-LUTE max $625.

so. 625. and I'm hoping i can find a place on the subway....

ok I'm stopping now cause you simply know way to much about me.

and this damn thin is suppose to be anonymous!!

aaAArg!!