over my head

i have almost certainly got myself in over my head. for starters, after a month of a vigilant search, i have found my dream apartment: its small, yes but a bachelor. but it is $699 ALL INCLUSIVE! I'm talking prime realistate in an area where everything else is over $775. it has a gym, pool, tennis, racket. and its right by the subway and mall. its clean no bugs! upscale meaning, white people. and all mine as soon as a sign the lease now the problem: i don't have a job this however would not be a problem i know i have to get a job the problem is all of the annoying nagging intolerant people who insist on telling me I'm never going to make it I'm paraphrasing if i don't get a job damn parents! what the hell do they know! its not like I'm going to get a job people! stop stressing me out!! I'm stressing myself out now! onto my other issue the other thing that is working me into a tither is OCAD I'm going - whoopie i was on the site scrolling student work when i should have been looking for a job online like i should be right now pfft and i saw all of these amazing student works i don't know how in the hell i got accepted to this place i swear I'm nowhere near as good as these cracked people ON TOP of all that - i have always embraced this lifestyle of being a weird, outcast, dark, mysterious, artsy fartsy kidyoushoninhighschoolandarenowsportingtheridesignerthreadswhileprimpingyourcasawithalltheir paintings *GAAASP! Andy Warhol style - YE-A! but, i don't know about ocad now they seem really exclusive and i really have no idea how i am going to fit in there i think... yes... my dreams are ruining my life - my fantasies over reality I'm paralysed by my big dreams i have most certainly gotten myself in over my head check out the ocad student site: www.myocad.com